March 2012
1 post
My Myers-Briggs type is DTF.
AAAAAAAHAHAHAHAHA
December 2011
2 posts
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She's done it again...
Yep. There’s this man that I want to shag like a minx. This tweet prompted my post:
girlpostsNikita
I miss you. All day. Everyday and you cant even imagine how pathetic it makes me feel because i don’t even know if you miss me back.
I feel like I’ve felt this way so often in the past 2 years for different men who live on the opposite coast. Well this one lives in my...
September 2011
1 post
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Open All the Way...
So I went to that website my friend suggested about alternative marriage arrangements and it was some pay site, so I did a little Amazon trolling and found a new-ish book, Open All the Way: Confessions From My Open Marriage by Sadie Smythe, which is based on Sadie’s blog, Sadiesopenmarriage.com.
I’m so happy I downloaded this book and encourage anyone in any sort of committed...
August 2011
3 posts
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Southwest Airlines - Continues to Reinforce their... →
My rant: If an airline is going to suggest I to buy an additional seat, they need to make sure that additional seat is NEXT TO me. They also need to do this respectfully and using discretion. The other passengers shouldn’t know that I had to buy another seat at the possible bumping of another so that I get angst and shitty comments when I get on the plane.
I used to weight 120 lbs more than...
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So How Do I Put This Delicately??
So I had a long conversation with a close friend who is aware of the majority of my exploits. She’s even been in vicinity for several. She told me I was a nonconformist because I do not follow rules as an athiest re: marriage. I told her that in terms of my marriage, I’m not a nonconformist but a hypocrite. I took the vows to commit and flagrantly break them. She, however, is a...
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A light, a glimmer...
I’m excited about two things. One - a column response in BUST magazine (my favorite after Rolling Stone. Two - a conversation I had with one of my best friends that made alot of sense and forced me to think about alot of things I’ve been avoiding. Before I continue, if you are a woman (young or not so young) and aren’t reading BUST magazine, please look into it at...
July 2011
3 posts
Here's how I'm feeling right now (Snow White by... →
Which is so dumb. But he’s invading my brain. Obviously I have no concept of what love is anyway if this is how I treat it. But someone posted a great graphic on Tumblr awhile ago that just said “I fall in and out of love every day.”
So hard to find a connection - a true connection - with someone.
Husband’s birthday was this week. You know what that means.
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One more thing
So around the beginning of the year I said “new year, new roster.” Not true as one of those guys I referenced started sexting me! So now I have this super secret sexting relationship HAHAHA. This guy is so hot, too. My life is so effing crazy.
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Chicago - SOOO great. Me - missing him.
It always happens after a long business trip full of daytime adrenaline and evening debauchery - depression. In addition to vodka withdrawal, I’m having withdrawal from the man I referenced in my previous post(s). Started out weird but then got more comfortable - he kissed me one night and we made out a little bit. Then the next day he tells me he’s “seeing someone” and...
June 2011
1 post
Chicago- will it be New Orleans 2.0?
Soooo I’m 2 weeks from our annual meeting at work and who’s going to be there again but they guy I had the best time with in New Orleans. We made out one night and then just kinda flirted for the rest of the time, but he’s married too and at the time wanted to focus on getting things back on track with his wife, so we just left it that way. We’ve been in touch all year and...
April 2011
2 posts
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When it rains...
It’s been awhile so I’ll run through a quick update so I have it down and never forget. Shane met me a few weeks ago in New Orleans while I was on work travel. It was so great to have a partner in crime - there of all places, as it’s pure hedonism and debauchery. I spent a rediculous amount of money on strippers and booze and we had a great time, but we spent 3 nights in the same...
Masturbating on Good Friday
Seriously? It makes me so sad that this person is in so much pain. We need to stop beating ourselves (off) up for things that OTHERS may perceive as wrong. I don’t mean to trivialize this at all - I’m just saying that in your life there are things to regret and things to accept about yourself and let go. This, to me, seems to fall in the latter category.
mybiggestregretever:
My...
March 2011
1 post
Being Stuck in an Asexual Marriage →
Just found this article online and thought it may help others as it helped me.
It’s always good to know there are others in the same situation. It helps me feel less alone, I think.
I’m in Columbus, OH for work right now by myself for two weeks. I’ve joined an office of people in order to help them fight some bad legislation, and they’ve been great. But last night I went...
January 2011
5 posts
Best friend of 20 years wants more...
Ok I have a problem and am unsure what to do. My best friend (is also female) since 8th grade wants more physically from me and I’m absolutely not interested in any way, yet she won’t get the point. I always knew that she was bisexual, even before she was willing to admit it. I’m a very vocal LGBT supporter/ally and have been for as long as I remember. Am I bisexual? I...
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Just Chillin'
So new year, new roster. That sounds awful but here’s why. The reason why I was flirty and hanging out with these two men I’ve blogged about earlier was because we have so much in common and because I was hoping they were interested…
Well neither of them are very good at sending signs. They’re both cool with making out and misbehaving (partying etc.), but are basically...
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Bucket List
Ok so Bucket List is such a cheesy phrase but I’ve crossed something off it. I was “made over” at a BDSM party, which could mean any number of things. In my case, I was tied and whipped with this little leather thingy with multiple strands. I think “whipped” may be overstated, but it was HOT! Wasn’t necessarily a turn-on, but the thought of others watching me...
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I am not alone
An update to my last post. Shane met me in Jacksonville where we drank and went out for two or three nights. The first night, after we returned from the bar/stripclub, we lay in our separate double beds in my hotel room and he made a crack about how he’d hoped we’d be in the same bed. I went over to his bed and he eventually raised my face to his and we made out a bit. He’s a...
November 2010
2 posts
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Viva Las Vegas
I was sent for work out to Las Vegas to help organize a major political effort two weeks prior to election day. My coworkers and I were put in with a group of organizers and began to shape the work we had to do. Amongst them were several much older men, some older Dad-types and some fun and interesting younger men. A few days into the effort we were merged with another group, which brought in...
Finally someone who may understand...
thecheatingwife:
Do not hold strong opinions about things you do not understand.
I used to judge people who cheated all the time, swearing I would never. Marriage is hard, no one could ever realize just how hard until they get married. Now, it feels crazy that I am expected to love only one person for the rest of my life. That I am expected to get all my emotional, physical, and mental needs...
October 2010
3 posts
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On Cymbalta and Sex Drive
http://www.dooce.com/2010/10/19/wherein-i-answer-frequently-asked-question
Ok so I love Heather B. Armstrong’s blog DOOCE and she wrote this great post about antidepressants and their effects on her sex drive. She writes that she’s tried various meds and is now on Cymbalta and hoping it will give her her sex drive back, as her doctor says it “might not reduce your sex...
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Bermuda BUST
Ok so if you read the last post, you know that I went on a cruise to Bermuda with my friend and her parents. Seems innocent enough until you read that I had plans to meet up with Jake*, this guy I’ve been working with on and off for the last 2 years, who lives on the opposite coast. The plan was to get together, get drunk and have a great time. I bought a hotel room with two beds (lodging...
September 2010
1 post
It's been awhile...
since I’ve been in any trouble but that’s because I have some trouble planned.
My friend is going on a cruise to Bermuda with her 2 parents and needed a second person for her room. It’s been a very stressful several months at work and I can totally use a vacation. I was supposed to meet up with this guy from New Orleans that I’ve been getting closer and closer to...
August 2010
1 post
Keep putting myself in these situations...
So I spent a week in Las Vegas at the Netroots Nation #NN10 bloggers’ conference. This year I’ve gone to two new places for me - New Orleans and now Vegas. Made out with a newly-married coworker, a stripper, danced my ass off and had the most fun. Worked soooo hard but totally worth it.
Next I go on a 3-city tour in one week…and I’m meeting up with a previous liaison....
July 2010
2 posts
Holding Back
mybiggestregretever:
My biggest regret ever is holding back. I have seen something that I had lost hope of ever finding. The problem is that I have been trapped in my mind and unable to tell someone what I am feeling. I hope I succeed in preventing this from being my biggest regret ever. Life is not a dress rehearsal.
[Female, 33]
I’ve been in New Orleans for work for 13 days. I...
June 2010
4 posts
Leaving You
mybiggestregretever:
My biggest regret ever is leaving you. You are the only one who ever really loved me.
[Female, 21]
I keep reading this post. It’s so simple but so important to my life right now. I want to learn from her mistake. I feel like my relationship with my husband is such a mess right now. I don’t want to leave and I don’t want a divorce. We have a nice...
“I desire the things which will destroy me in the end.”
– Sylvia Plath (via beeftown)
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Great weekend...and behaved!
Well for the most part, but that’s mainly because the decision was made for me. “Dan,” the guy that I wrote about previously, backed out due to family obligations. I figured he would. Oh well, it was a great opportunity to tell him how I’ve felt even if nothing happened, but it just didn’t happen.
The event was a wedding for a family friend, so my two gorgeous...
May 2010
14 posts
The Hat by Ingrid Michaelson
Ok so this morning...
Best song for difficult times... →
I am medicated for anxiety and depression, and have been for over 10 years. I went through a very difficult period when I was coming off one medication and starting new ones. The original medication was no longer effective, as can happen when taking the same meds for a few years. Well, I had a new doctor and he wanted to start me on Cymbalta and another supplemental prescription, but first I had...
A second abortion? NO WAY!
I’m not saying I will never cheat again. I would like to say that if I did, it would be just making out - no sex. But I sure as HELL will NEVER put myself in this situation again. EVER EVER EVER. I can’t even imagine what the self-loathing would be like then.
Having a Second Abortion
mybiggestregretever:
My biggest regret ever is having a second abortion. I never thought after the first time that I would do it again because of my moral, physical, mental, and emotional health. I love the man I was with, but I was too scared to let down my family. I suffer from anxiety and my stomach lining has been weak ever since.
[Female, 25]
Aaaand Exhale...for now
So I called the clinic myself and the HIV test is negative. But I’m not forgetting that HIV tests usually take 3 months to show up, and the unprotected activity occurred 5 or 5 weeks ago. SO I will definitely get tested in a month or two, but now I can sleep a little better.
So this weekend I couldn’t sleep and decided to look up ”Odds of Contracting HIV” on my Blackberry....
Aaarg.
So I’m unsure if the pills were successful and won’t know for 2 weeks, but now my immediate sights are set on HIVHIVHIVHIVHIV which is all I can seem to think about. I keep imagining the phone call from the clinic. I will get it at work and I’m just hearing the words in my head: “Your test results came back positive.” And then my mind’s computer basically...
rayoline13104 asked: just read your article on abortion. if only you could be that honest with your husband, but i understand more than i want to.
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My night
Last night I took the Misoprostol (stage 2) at 8:30pm, after taking 2 Vicodin pills and 800 mg of Ibuprofen, as doctor recommended. The three Misoprostol pills took 15 minutes to dissolve under my tongue and cramping began around 9pm. Bleeding began at 9:15pm.
As the doctor said, the pain was at it’s worst between 4-6 hours after I took stage 2 pills. I took enough Vicodin that I...
metapianycist asked: I'm not sure of what you mean by an "abortion pill." What drugs is it made of, and what pharmeceutical company manufactures it?
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Times sure have changed...
Went in for appointment at women’s clinic and was out within an hour. Not to say it was easy, but I’m amazed that my mother’s and grandmother’s generations would’ve had to get an abortion in a diner bathroom by some butcher.
Once through paperwork, the doctor and aide came in and did a vaginal sonogram. I asked to see the screen and they were silent, then he said...
11:38am. At work - leaving for clinic in 22 mins.
This whole thing doesn’t seem real. I just printed out all the paperwork the clinic asked me to fill out in advance and bring on my office printer. I’ve filled it out and put it in my bag. In a few minutes, I will drive to the clinic and sit down with the doctor.
When the cramping comes, I know it will be real to me. I fear the pain but welcome and deserve it.
I’m trying to...
Craving Attention From Guys as Validation
mybiggestregretever:
My biggest regret ever is craving attention from guys as some sort of validation. After he left me for her, I submitted myself to the humiliation of losing my self-respect to a 30-something year old man who only saw me as tits and ass.
[Female, 20]
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Tomorrow I have an appointment...
to abort the fetus in my uterus. At 1pm, I willl go in to the women’s health center and take a pill. Six hours later, I will take another pill. Within 12 hours later, I will no longer be 4 weeks pregnant with a fetus that is not my husband’s.
This is not my first instance of sexual contact outside my marriage, but I guess I could say my luck finally ran out and my stupidity caught up...
